Here I go again…I feel like writing every time I have a major problem. But maybe it helps to let out my thoughts. So my sweet Brooklynn is 4 1/2 and we continue to struggle with going to the bathroom. I wouldn’t say she has accidents really, but she wets enough to be uncomfortable, and sometime show through to her pants. This has happened off and on since she was toilet trained just over 2 years ago. From day one of trying to train her I felt like it was a struggle. I didn’t know how to do it and I lost my patience easily! I wish so much I could go back and do it again! With Braeden I have been so relaxed and he was so so so easy to train! There was almost zero stress and it has been a breeze. I know what you’re thinking, whats the big deal about a pee spot on the underwear? I don’t even know! It’s just this thing that has consumed both me and her, I think. She has to go, she squirms and worms forever and finally either gives in herself or I try to drop major hints about going to the bathroom. I bribe with candy…trying to not make a big deal about it. But inside I am going nutty! Usually by then though, she needs new underwear, which just drives me crazy. Why can’t she just wear one pair of underwear a day? Is that not too much to ask out of a 4 year old? AHHH! I try to relax about it, not remind her for a few days, and it usually gets better for a time, but somehow we slip right back. She has a friend over, gets waaay to busy and has wet her underwear too much has to change them. I remind her of my dislike about it (in a calm way usually) and still we slip back into the “I must hold in my pee for all time mode” Yikes.
Tonight at Bible Study though we were talking about how Satan uses pain in our lives so that we can blame God or others causing more confusion and craziness in our lives. I got to thinking right away how this problem we are having is exactly that! Not that I am blaming God or anyone else for what Brooklynn and I are going through, but maybe Satan is using this “painful” experience to bump me off course, to take my focus off my goal of being diligent servant of Jesus by being the best Mom I can be. When Brooklynn is in the thick of her struggle I can only think of one thing…Oh please oh please God let her get to the bathroom on her own with out a push or struggle! When I write this down it seems so silly, but really this is a big deal if its distracting me from who I need to be. I wish I had a nice ending to this post. But I don’t so far. All I can do is start again tomorrow. Pray that God will not only help Brooklynn make right choices about getting to the bathroom on time, but pray that my God will free me from being consumed by this silly thing. If Satan is mucking around in the situation, I want him GONE! (Since when did Satan concern himself with potty training? I suppose he can show up any place a Jesus follower like me will be, in everyday life) Tomorrow is a new day. His mercies are new every morning, Great is thy faithful oh God my father.